Girl Talk: Get To Know Me Q&A

Today is new years eve and the last day of 2017. This year has gone so fast and a lot has happened. I feel like I’ve changed a lot over the past year, mostly for the better, and just matured quite a bit. Overall it’s been a really good year and I’m excited for 2018. Happy new year to all of you and I really hope that 2018 brings you all the best. Thank you for supporting me throughout 2017 and I hope you continue to do so next year.

I’m starting a series called ‘Girl Talk.’ A lot of people do this and I’ve been inspired by others to do this. Even though so many others do it, I feel like everyone has different advice as we’ve all experienced different things and we all talk about different things. If you have a topic/question you’d like me to talk about/answer in my next girl talk, please let me know! I thought I’d start it off by doing a Q&A so you can all get to know me a bit better. I found these questions online and they’re from the ’25 New Get To Know Me Tag.’

Also, if you want me to start doing story times, please let me know as I have a few that might be quite funny to share and then a few not so funny, but you might still enjoy reading for various reasons. Give me suggestions too and have an amazing new year however you spend it!

  1. Are you named after anyone?
    No, I’m not. My mum just always liked my name and it was the only one my dad agreed to call me.
  2. When was the last time you cried?
    I’m a very emotional person and when I feel any emotion very strongly, good or bad, I cry. So I cry quite a lot because I think it’s healthy to get your emotions out. I also cry when I laugh a lot. But I think the last time I cried was yesterday when I was walking to the train station because I have shin splints because the day before I decided to run on concrete for 20 minutes in heeled boots.
  3. Do you have kids?
    No! I’m only a teenager, I’m in high school. I don’t want to have kids until I’m about 30.
  4. If you were another person, would you be a friend of yourself?
    I’ve actually thought about this before and I’m really not sure. I’d like to think I would be. I think I’d either be best friends with myself, or be my worst enemy.
  5. Do you use sarcasm a lot?
    I’m a naturally very sarcastic person. My sister says me and my brother are the most sarcastic people she’s ever met. I think me and my family generally are quite sarcastic and sometimes I have a sarcastic sense of humour.
  6. What’s the first thing you notice about people?
    I actually don’t know what the first thing I notice is but I tend to quickly observe peoples hair colour, height and accent.
  7. What is your eye colour?
    My eyes are light blue.
  8. Scary movie or happy endings?
    I’m not the biggest fan of either. I’m not that into movies to be honest. I’d much rather spend my time doing something else.
  9. Favourite smells?
    This is so typical but I love autumnal/winter scents like cinnamon.
  10. What’s the furthest you’ve ever been from home?
    Around 3,700 miles or 6,000 kilometres. So not that far really.
  11. Do you have any special talents?
    The short answer is no. I’m not talented at all which I kind of wish I was. It would nice to be better than other people at something.
  12. Where were you born?
    One of the most beautiful cities in the world. It does come somewhere on this list if you’re really that interested.
  13. What are your hobbies?
    I don’t really have any of the typical hobbies like dancing or gymnastics – I’m pretty awful at them to be honest. So I guess this is. I do really enjoy writing posts and I think I’m going to love doing this girl talk series.
  14. Do you have any pets?
    Yes I have a black and white cat. She’s the most adorable little thing ever!
  15. Do you have any siblings?
    Yes. I have an older brother and an older sister, so I’m the youngest.
  16. What do you want to be when you grow up?
    I have absolutely no idea. I’m young and I have plenty of time to figure it out. If you have no idea what you want to do either, no matter what age you are, it’s totally okay, you have all the time in the world to figure it out and you will eventually.
  17. Who was your first best friend?
    Well, I’m not going to share her name, but we’ve been friends for ever and I’m still really good friends with her to this day. We don’t get to see each other a lot as we live in different cities now but we talk a lot and now that we’re old enough to travel to other cities alone, I think we’ll start seeing each other more. I think we’ve managed to stay friends for so long because we share similar interests and our personalities match quite well.
  18. How tall are you?
    I’m 5’7″ or 171cm, so I’m fairly tall but I love it.
  19. Funniest moment throughout school?
    Honestly, I have so many. And I’m still in school and funny things happen all the time. I’ll probably think of some hilarious things and do story times on them so look out for them. I feel like things me and my friends do that we think are funny, no one else will. But I will get back to you for that question.
  20. How many countries have you visited?
    I’ve visited 6 countries and I’ll be visiting a new country next year which I’m so excited about.
  21. What was your favourite/worst subject in High School?
    I’m in high school right now and my favourite subjects are biology and geography and my least favourites were/are PE, modern studies, art and home economics (I’ve dropped all of them apart from PE).
  22. What is your favourite drink? Animal? Perfume?
    I drink water all the time but if we’re talking alcoholic drinks, my favourite is just straight vodka. My favourite animal is a cat and my favorite perfume is Chanel No5.
  23. What would you (or have you) name your children?
    I have a few names even though I don’t want children until I’m 30. One of my favourite names for a girl is Emilia and one of my favourites for a boy is Daniel.
  24. What sports do you play/have you played?
    I’m awful at sports so I don’t play any and I haven’t ever played any. Unless you count skiing as a sport. I used to do that and I was quite good at it.
  25. Who are some of your favourite YouTubers?
    I could do a whole post on this if any of you would like me to but a few that I love just off the top of my head are Imogenation (Imogen Hudson), Simplynessa15 (Vanessa Martinez) and Hannah Witton.
  26. How many girlfriends/boyfriends have you had?
    I’ve had a boyfriend but I don’t know if I’d even class it as a proper relationship. We were together for about three months but I think I’ll do a whole story time on our relationship because some ridiculous things happened and I did some pretty stupid things.
  27. Favourite memory from childhood?
    I hate questions like this because I can’t just pick one memory! Not one specific thing comes to mind.
  28. How would you describe your fashion sense?
  29. What phone do you have? (iOS v Android?)
    I have an android. I just don’t care what phone I have, it’s just a phone.
  30. Tell us one of your bad habits!
    I’m getting into a habit of swearing, I always forget peoples names, talking in class, losing focus, twisting my hair round my fingers… I seem to have a lot!

Happy new year guys!


Festive Makeup Look – GRWM

Today is Christmas Eve, so merry Christmas! I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas however you celebrate it and if you don’t celebrate it, I hope you have a wonderful day nevertheless. I’ve not done a beauty post in the over a month I think, so I thought I’d do one today as I’ve missed writing them. I wanted to do a festive makeup look/GRWM so you can use this look for Christmas day, boxing day, new years eve or any parties/get togethers if you have no ideas for makeup and you like the sound of this. Again, I hope you all have a great Christmas and I also hope you enjoy this post!

First I’m going to use the Bourjois Air Mat Foundation and I’ll be blending that with my Beautyblender Royal Sponge. This foundation gives a natural matte finish with a medium buildable coverage and it’s longwearing. Even though it’s matte it’s still suitable for dry skin as it’s not drying in the slightest. I love applying my foundation with a damp Beautyblender as I find it blends it out so easily and flawlessly. For concealer I’m using the Rimmel Wake Me Up Concealer which is lightweight, gives a more awake look to the under eye area and has a decent amount of coverage. I like to blend my concealer out with the same Beautyblender I used for my foundation. I then set under my eyes using the Rimmel Stay Matte Pressed Powder on a Real Techniques Setting Brush which fits perfectly under the eye. I set the rest of my face using the same powder, which is my favourite face powder but using the Real Techniques Powder Brush.

I then fill in my eyebrows using the L’Oréal Brow Artist Genius Kit, using the wax to define the arch and the powder to fill them in. Next I apply my eye primer (I know I apply my makeup in a slightly weird order) and I’m currently using and loving the Urban Decay Eyeshadow Primer Potion in ‘Sin.’ I love Urban Decay’s eye primers in general as they make the wear and look of the eyeshadow a lot better, but ‘Sin’ has a gorgeous light golden/brown shimmery colour to it, which is stunning. On top of that I  use the shade ‘Trick’ from the Urban Decay Naked 3 Palette. I apply that with a Real Techniques Bold Metals Oval Shadow Brush and then I blend some of my bronzer into the crease for some definition and onto my lower lash line. This gives such a lovely warm coppery look to the eyes which I think is really festive.

I then like to contour using an eyeshadow, again, from the Urban Decay Naked 3 Palette and it’s the shade ‘Nooner’ which is a cool toned brown. I contour my cheekbones, jaw line and nose and the brush I use to do this is the Real Techniques Sculpting Brush. I then use the Benefit Hoola Bronzer to bronze my cheeks and forehead a bit and I use the Real Techniques Bold Metals Arched Powder Brush. Then I apply my Becca Shimmering Skin Perfector in ‘Moonstone’ with my Zoeva Luxe Highlight Brush to the tops of my cheekbones, the end of my nose, my cupids bow, eyebrow bones and inner corners. This highlighter gives the most gorgeous glow to my skin and the brush is amazing (I wrote this post about them if you want to know more). I apply a little bit of the Collection Blush in ‘Bashful’ to the apples of my cheeks using my bronzer brush.

I decided to apply a little bit of eyeliner close to my upper lash line and the eyeliner I used was the L’Oréal Super Liner Black Lacquer Waterproof. This eyeliner is so easy to use and is probably my favourite. And for my mascara, I’m using my favourite, the Maybelline Lash Sensational Mascara in ‘Intense Black’ which has such a unique wand which I think is why it’s so good. The lip liner I used was the MUA Lip Liner in ‘Caramel Nougat’ which I over line my lips with. I then used my MAC Amplified Crème Lipstick in ‘Blankety’ and then my favourite lip gloss, the NYX Butter Gloss in ‘Fortune Cookie.’

Merry Christmas everyone!

My Deepest Fear

A few weeks ago I wrote a post about my biggest fear, and in that I mentioned that I had an even deeper fear that I had never spoken about before because it’s so terrifying to me and maybe more rational and real than my fear of fire which I spoke about in my other post. This fear has developed over the past couple of years and it has gradually worsened. Unlike my fear of fire, I have no idea where this has stemmed from, I think it’s the kind of fear that a lot of people have naturally but to a lesser degree than mine – I’d like to know your thoughts.

So, my deepest fear is death. Not me dying though (although I am becoming gradually more scared of that), my family and friends dying, and the fear is most intense in terms of my parents and siblings dying. It’s not even just death though, it’s them becoming ill or injured in some way. I guess just them not being in a good state of health.

My problem is that I always think the worst. If my dad goes for a shower and he takes ages, my mind will go straight to him dying in the shower rather than a more rational explanation. If my brother hasn’t been home in a few days with no contact (which is a common thing), I think he’s dead. If my mum has gone to the shops and taken longer than I expected, I think she’s been in some kind of accident rather than a more rational explanation like that she’s gone to visit a friend (again, quite a common thing). In my head, I’m convinced that I’ll hear the doorbell in a second and the police will be there to tell me what’s happened.

And when things do happen, which they do, because that’s life and I have to find a way to accept and cope with it, I totally freak out. And I don’t react to bad situations very well in an emotional sense. I get really angry, show no sadness, just extreme anger. After I’ve coped with the anger, then I get upset.

My mum works a job slightly more risky and unpredictable than a normal job (yet not as dangerous as some, she’s done worse in the past) and has done for around three years now. She herself hasn’t been badly injured at all, the worst think that’s happened to her is a broken finger, but her colleagues have sustained slightly more serious injuries. As I said though, it’s unpredictable, anything could happen, and it’s always been a little bit worrying for me, especially when it’s ‘a bad time’ – if she’s saying it is, then it is.

Last year there was a situation which I’m not going to go into any detail about at all but it was quite bad. The person going through it really downplayed it and was very calm about it but my mum freaked out about it and it really took a toll on her and I could really see how upset she was about it. I would have usually been really worried about a situation like that but I wasn’t at all – I was very calm about it all. It did sometimes play on my mind a bit but I didn’t think the worst at all, I just kept telling myself it was fine. I think this was due to both the fact that the person going through it was so calm about it and also the fact that my mum was freaked out and worried. She never is, or never shows it at least, so I was just keeping it together for her so she wouldn’t be so worried and to maybe make her think it was going to be fine – it isn’t nice seeing your mum like that. Looking back, I’m surprised at how well I handled the situation actuallyAs I think I mentioned, I never used to have this fear. This is probably due to the fact that as a young teenager, you’re more naïve and have an underdeveloped awareness (I think) to how bad things are. But the thing is, I never even worried about things at all and I always saw things from the best perspective. And now, I always fear the worst.

I think a certain amount of fear is healthy because at the end of the day, bad things do happen and if you’re aware that they could happen then it won’t hit so hard. But a lot of fear isn’t healthy because stressing and worrying is so bad for you and it doesn’t change the end result at all.

This post might have been a bit ranty, pointless and a bit all over the place (so thanks for reading it!) but it was more for me to actually get this out because as I mentioned, I’ve never actually voiced any of this (and still technically haven’t but I’ve written it). I always think it helps to get things out in any kind of situation because bottling things up isn’t helping you at all. If you have something you need to get out, tell someone you trust, write it down, tell me by privately contacting me (you can trust me), just get it out and you’ll feel better. If there is anything you’d like me to talk about and I mean anything, let me know and I will!


My Favourite Songs – Christmas

I wanted to share with you some of my favourite Christmas songs as it’s only a couple of weeks until Christmas. I hope you like this short post and let me know what your all time favourite Christmas song is.

  1. Fairytale of New York – The Pogues, Kirsty MacColl
  2. Do They Know It’s Christmas? – Band Aid 30
  3. Happy Xmas (War Is Over) – John Lennon, Yoko Ono
  4. Rockin’ Around the Christmas Tree – Glee Cast
  5. Do They Know It’s Christmas? – Glee Cast
  6. Christmas Wrapping – Glee Cast
  7. Christmas Lights – Coldplay
  8. Last Christmas – Wham!
  9. All I Want For Christmas Is You – Mariah Carey
  10. Merry Xmas Everybody – Slade

My Favourite Songs – December 2017

I wanted to share with you my current favourite songs. I love music so much and I listen to it all the time. I obviously have my all time favourite songs but these are just ten that I’ve been listening to a lot lately. Some of these are newer and some of these are quite old – I listen to all kinds of music. I hope you enjoy this quick post and maybe find some songs you love. Let me know what songs you’re loving at the moment.

  1. Big For Your Boots – Stormzy
  2. When Ur Sober – Taya, Yxng Bane
  3. Wild Thoughts – DJ Khaled, Rihanna, Bryson Tiller
  4. I’m Not The Only One – Sam Smith
  5. Remember Every Scar – Escape The Fate
  6. I Want To Break Free – Queen
  7. Saving All My Love For You – Whitney Houston
  8. Spotlight – Jennifer Hudson
  9. Attention – Charlie Puth
  10. Fetish – Selena Gomez, Gucci Mane



Love or Money

Love or money?

What’s most important to you?

It’s different for all of us for different reasons, just as anything is.

For years, I didn’t know what was more important to me. I probably would have said money, so I could have whatever material items I want and I’d just have to do without love.

Recently something happened which lead to one defining moment, when I knew what I’d rather. And now, it’s just so obvious.


I come from a financially ‘comfortable’ family and growing up, me and my siblings always had everything we needed and never went without anything. We weren’t just given things we wanted and we had to earn them or wait until our birthdays and Christmases. We went on what would be considered a lot of family holidays abroad and had what would be considered more than enough. We were never just handed money because we wanted to go out, we had to earn that money. We weren’t spoiled with material items.

We were however spoiled with love and attention, especially me, being the youngest. We were all loved very much. My mum didn’t just take maternity leave, she left her work, an amazing job and looked after me until I started school when I was five. And she did all of that for all three of us, missing out on a lot of money. She made sure that we just had her full love and attention (I’m aware not all parents are able to do this and that doesn’t make you a bad parent!) and I really appreciate that.

There is someone, who’s relationship to me I will not mention, who was brought up with the opposite – a lot of money, because their mum continued to work a very hard job that takes up a lot of her time rather than stay at home with him and his brother (again, doesn’t make her a bad mum) and in this situation, not much attention and not as much love. So even though the amount of money and material items they have is more, the amount of love and attention is less. His mum works in a different city just for better money so she is never there and for him. He would rather her do a different job in the city for less money and just be there more as him and his brother don’t feel like their first priority to her.

This is part of what made me realise how much more I would rather love than money. Money means nothing when you’re not loved. Love is so much more important and I’ve realised the true power of love.

I’m good at understanding other peoples point of view, but in this case, if someone said money, I don’t know if I’d be able to understand.

Don’t get me wrong, I am materialistic and I love material items but money can’t buy you happiness, but with love comes guaranteed happiness.

Let me know your thoughts, even if you disagree.


My Biggest Fear

Today I’m going to be talking about my biggest fear. This is a fear that I’m open about and will happily talk about with people as it’s not that deep or personal, it’s just something I’m really scared of. I have another fear that is quite deep and a lot more personal which I don’t think I’ve ever spoken about to anyone – maybe I’ll write a post on that in a few weeks. Anyway, I have quite a big fear of fire, specifically my house burning down and being burnt alive. I’m going to talk about where I think this fear might have stemmed from and how it affects me in my everyday life.

So, when I was younger, I went to my grandma’s house twice a week after school and she always watched those awful American movies on channel 5. A lot of them were very unsuitable for a child to be watching and some of them gave me nightmares. There was a particular movie that really scared me where a woman got trapped in a room and got burnt alive. In late 2010 she let me watch the Coronation Street tram crash. A couple of months later in early 2011 she let me watch the episode of Neighbours where a house went on fire because of Steph’s faulty Christmas lights. Watching these disturbing and very real looking things scared me a lot and I believe it’s where my fear has stemmed from.

I need to make sure that all electrical appliances are off and unplugged before I go to sleep at night and before I leave the house. If I think I might have left my laptop on charge or something, I get so paranoid – I’m not joking when I say I’d have to come home from school to check because it would take over my mind. No one I my house is allowed to charge their phones overnight – everything has to be off. No one is allowed to leave charging appliances unattended if they are on carpet or fabric (my brother does this regardless and I can’t deal with it). Before I leave the house in the morning I have to make sure the switches under my desk are off and I often check multiple times. We also have an electrical heater on the ground floor because it gets so cold down there but it gets so hot and could deffiently start a fire. I hate it when my mum dries stuff on it because sometimes she forgets about it and I can literally smell the heat from my bedroom two floors up.

In Chemistry at school we do a lot of experiments, a lot of them involving fire. I hate doing experiments for this reason and usually will just refuse to do them which gets me in a lot of trouble and I’ve ended up in trouble with senior management. I just hate being near fire and looking at it. Even though I know that it’s safe and controlled in school, it just scares me.

Back in January, the light in my bedroom broke and started sparking behind the light switch. I was convinced my bedroom was going to go on fire and I was hyperventilating and then started hysterically crying. I wouldn’t go back in my room and my mum had do go in and get all of my things so I could sleep in my brother’s room (my brother wasn’t there) on the ground floor next to a door. My bedroom is on the second floor (or third floor if you’re American), the top floor and if there was a fire it would be hard for me to escape, I most likely wouldn’t be able to. That thought scares me.

The last house that I lived in had been fully burnt down long before I lived there and obviously when I lived there, it had been fully restored. However, there were images online (the house is quite famous) of it fully burnt down to the foundations. You can see where all of the windows on the bottom two floors were though and I could see exactly where my bedroom was and even though it happened before I lived there, it just freaked me out.

Weirdly, my sister is also scared of fire, just to a lesser degree. Unlike me, she is scared of her starting the fire as she’s really careless. She always leaves her straighteners on and there are burn marks all over her carpet. Only a few days ago she left them on, on her bed. It obviously doesn’t help knowing she does stuff like that.

I’m quite scared of burning myself and I’m not sure if this is related to my fear of fire or not. I avoid taking things out of the oven all together as I’m just so scared of it. I think the last time I burnt myself was in home economics a few years ago when I took a cake out of the oven without oven gloves on – what an idiot. I think it’s needless to say that I dropped home economics as soon as I could. As I mentioned, I am scared of burning alive, it totally freaks me out. In recent years I read a book where a girl burnt alive and it created such a real image in my mind and I obviously now avoid reading things like that.

Sorry if this post was a bit all over the place, I just wanted to share this with you all. Let me know if you want me to write about my deepest fear. It will be harder to write about but I think it would be good for me to do so.